Before I go any further, allow me to share some background facts about my voyage to becoming a stay at home mom.
Found out I was pregnant.
Not sure what that meant as far as becoming a mom.
I knew I wasn't ready.
Never planned on having kids (especially at 21).
gave birth to my son in November.
Became overwhelmed quickly.
felt as if I had to protect him
Neglected my husband
Friends neglected me
started to get the hang of things
went back to school
went back to work
decided i couldn't leave my son 5 days a week at his young age
became a stay at home mom when he was 7 months
found out I was pregnant.... AGAIN
Depression knocked at the door
I opened the door
Depression made itself at home
started to hate my life
resented my husband
and my kids
but, mostly myself for allowing this to happen
wanted to give up
know one took me serious (about being depressed)
Started to doubt myself (about being depressed)
Stopped talking about being depressed (didn't want people to think I was crazy)
Became more depressed
Son was born
LOVED my son
HATED my life
still resented my husband and the fact that he still had his sanity and job
started taking online classes
that didn't work for long
resented my husband more for that
things were going well (thanks to a new found Friend)
planned a vow renewal with husband (yes the one I resented!)
had a REALLY nice vow renewal in July
Found out I was pregnant is August
By this time, I was already sure that my life was over anyway so whatever
purchased our home
use the house to clear my mind
painted kitchen red
painted cabinets white
painted powder room green
painted bedroom a creamy white
changed mind on bedroom color then went beige
gave birth to my third son (yes, after I painted those rooms)
planned a house warming party
Did I mention that I had 3 c-sections? oh, and gained a bunch of weight?
Anyway, had to prepare for house warming
painted some more
Things were going okay
became overwhelmed again
this time with taking care of a home, kids, and husband
started my blog
school was a no go
things are better!
If you are still reading this, I'm getting to the point now! I want to add little snippets of my life and my adventures of being a stay at home mom. I want to ask for advice from you guys from time to time. I started this blog as an outlet for me to possibly connect with other "ADULTS". the other day a friend asked me how I do it being a stay at home mom for almost 6 years to 3 children and still have my sanity. I honestly don't know how I've made it this far, but what I do now is I read a lot and it helps. For instance, right now I'm reading this book
I swear, I can relate to everything in this book. Really! It helps me to look at life and parenting differently. I realized that there are other moms that have gone or go through the SAME. EXACT. THINGS!
Now, about my husband, I'm reading this book
This book helped me to look at myself and by doing that I was able to see Tony differently. Our relationship has been so much better (and I'm the only one reading the book). Actually, this book has helped me with relationships in general.
Basically what I'm getting at here is do you mind if I squeeze in a few of my "life moments" on this here blog? I promise I will not talk about religion or politics. Just my crazy life of being a homebody!